Summary: God blesses us because he loves us, not because of all we do for him, the Holy Spirit will guide us on how to love God, persevere through despair.
Do not lose heart, My children, it is a long and perilous path you tread with many twists and turns. It is so easy to think of the past, of all the failures and disappointments, of all your attempts to present yourself entirely to Me and abide in My shadow. Many good souls have lost their way looking only at their current state of unfaithfulness and sin, after so many years and such little progress a feeling of utter despair threatens to overwhelm you in your helplessness. But My children do you truly believe I would abandon you, I tell you most solemnly that you are blind, unable to see all that you have achieved and are achieving in the spiritual realms. Is not My love enough for you to achieve greatness? I do not bless you because of all that you do for Me, I bless you because I love you and even the feeblest effort on your part allows Me to fill you with My Spirit, to cleanse you of all your transgressions. So come to Me, learn how to enter into My love, to abide in My love, let Him illumine and animate your entire being. Yes My Spirit shall do My work within you, working from the inside out, cleansing the humble, contrite and impotent, levelling the haughty and conceited, until you are perfect, your inner being strengthened in the most sure, silent and clandestine way as you slowly abandon all that is of no value to receive more of My Holy Spirit. It is He who shall teach you; guide you on how to give Me your love and hold onto all that shall both carry and preserve you for that is My faithful promise to you and all who follow Me. Amen.
Widows Mote 