During one of our prayer groups I remember saying that one of the best things about Heaven will be that we can drop our guard and be the people we are. We can take off this false front and become deeply real and open with each other. All of the damage that has happened to us to make us develop these extra layers will be healed and we can show our true selves.
I don’t know how many people manage to do this in their daily lives. I find myself adapting all of the time to the situation I am in and to the people I am talking to. It comes so naturally to me that I can’t control it, it seems to be part of me. I often think after a chat with someone: why did I say that? why couldn’t I tell them exactly what I thought? why do I let them make me feel like that? what are they really thinking and feeling?
We do have to adapt sometimes as that is what makes us ‘socially acceptable’ and it can also be about making the other person feel good about themselves even if we are not being honest in our opinions. The way that I most object to not being myself is when I am with family members or friends that make me feel a certain way and I have got this shell of a personality around me that I can’t seem to break out of. Fear can also be part of this. Fear of reactions, of hurting others, of losing their friendship. Although it is hard to change and be ourselves at all times, it is worth the struggle because it will become easier as we break out of our shells.
As I get older I still find it all very tiring and it is what led me to say that dropping this veneer will be one of the best things about being in heaven. All is known about us, no more hiding or pretending to be someone different. How relaxing and peaceful that will be. We just dwell together in perfect harmony and love.
God bless you and help you to be the real person he intended you to be,
Widows Mote 