When you start to believe in God, to have taken that leap in faith, do work out what kind of God you believe in. We know from the Bible that he is trinitarian, but one God and we know aspects of his character from how he has dealt with us, his creatures, from the beginning.
From this outline, we can gain help with building this picture, but we also need to do it internally. I know what kind of God I believe in. He is kind, wise, all loving, faithful, patient, and has every positive attribute you can think of about him. He is the love in us and the good in us. We need to keep this picture of the God we believe in when nonsense is said about him. With our concrete picture of him, we can refute the untruths and know that they aren’t talking about our God.
God gave us free will. We aren’t an experiment and he doesn’t micromanage us. We are free to do as we want and choose what we want. This can lead us to have a good or a bad life in many senses. What we can’t do is blame God when it all goes wrong. Free will is a tremendous gift and if we abuse it, we have to be willing to face up to the consequences.
When something happens and you can’t understand it, refer back to this God you have in your heart and you will have all of the answers you need. I do believe that as long as we act in fairness and love that even if things go wrong, God knows that we are trying and above all he is very forgiving. His willingness to forgive has led to the offering of his Divine Mercy to all who request it. We are fallible and he knows this and has offered us a way to draw close to him again and be saved.
Do set this picture up in your hearts, you will need it for the tough things that happen in life and hold onto it through thick and thin.
God bless you and may you find peace in your friendship with God,
Widows Mote 